I'm writing this journal all thanks to a dear, long-time customer of mine who messaged me yesterday. He reminded me that I had promised to open commissions at the end of the Summer, and was wondering if I was okay since no one had heard anything from me for so long. Now I'm here to assure you all that I'm still alive and there's no need to worry
First, super sorry for being super inactive for so super long. School (which is finally actually enjoyable since I got in to a crafts school!) has been taking an awful lot of energy. Lessons are great, and people are nice, but it's an hour away and the bus lines are crap and I have to wake up at 6am every morning to get there early. An average school day ends at 2pm and usually I'm back home 3:30pm or later. That means a school day takes me almost 9 hours of concentrating and effort, and you can bet I'm tired after that. Then I usually nap for an hour or so, make dinner, and do my homework before I head to bed.
I do have some computer time most evenings, I've just been away from most social media lately, and that includes dA. I have almost completely stopped most public interaction on facebook because I have started to find it exhausting. (Though I still run my plush page! there just haven't been updates recently.) This worries me a lot because I don't want to end up losing all contact with my friends, but I can't bring myself to do anything about it either :/
Second, sorry for yet again talking about opening commissions and then not doing as I promised. I understand if some of you are starting to get super pissed at me for doing that so much, but I swear I'm not doing it to be mean to you on purpose. The reason is mostly the same as stated above - tiredness and lack of time. I often talk about opening because I literally think about plushmaking every day. I want to get back to business, I really want to finish the renewed patterns, and I really REALLY want to make more huggable friends for everyone. But my personal time has been scarce for a couple months and I barely even have hobbies any more. I haven't been to the orchestra rehearsals since the end of Spring. I meet friends outside schooltime maybe once a month. If I didn't have housemates I would be living on instant noodles and fast food because I don't have the energy to go grocery shopping alone.
Okay, that went a little too deep for a casual journal. I don't want to be a burden to all of you wonderful people. Seriously, thanks for still being there
I have some traditional art that I scanned at school that I may submit here at some point, and maybe you'll soon get to see my school projects as well. I should try to keep this account at least somehow alive Here's the important part:
I really hope to pick myself up as soon as I can and become active in art and plushing again. But until I can figure this mess out myself,
I'm going on a hiatus.
Or something like that. What this means is:
- My commissions, both art and plushies, will be closed until I explicitly announce otherwise. I really regret saying this, and it hurts me to know there are people who have been waiting for me to open again for a long time, but I'm doing this for my own wellbeing.
- Please, DON'T send me messages asking when I'll reopen. I don't know that myself, and right now such messages will just stress me and put me under pressure. Other messages such as casual chat, price inquiries, asking for advice, are still okay
- I will still visit dA, may post some things, and try to reply to comments and PMs as often as I'm capable.
- I will be back! I have no plans to ever stop taking plush commissions, so please don't worry. As soon as I'm back to a more balanced headspace and things are in order, I will tell you!
And last I want to give another big thank you to everyone who is still following me! You guys rock, and I want to send love to every single one of you.
I miss you. dA has been the loveliest community I've ever had the chance to be a part of, and I wish to be back soon. Please, do tell me how you've been in the comments! I might take a while to come up with a reply, but I will read them all
I hope this journal turned out consistent enough to understand. I may have babbled a lot but I'm too tired to go back and double check.
(tl;dr: ramblings about my endless personal problems and exhaustion, important points in text bolded.)